I'm positive you've had this question glide through your mind, "Mammoth-sized textbooks to digest, indecipherable case notes to pour over.....why the crap am I doing medicine?"
I was going through one of those phases, and thought I had to resign to feeling uninspired for a long time, until........I scrubbed in.
It was 9am Friday the 13th, and there I was in theatre 15, awaiting a left hepatectomy with radical biliary tree resection. Not long into the operation, I was given the opportunity by my tutor (a consultant surgeon) to scrub in...gosh, it was exciting!
Surgery is such a medical stereotype, and for good reason. It may sound cliche, but the view on the operating table is nothing like what you see in textbooks. No blue veins or red arteries standing out, no labeled arrows to refer to...just plain organic tissue. And far from being a put off, it was like beholding a genius, complex work of art. Marvelous.
9 hours of standing later (honestly, I could feel varicose veins growing on me), I left the theatre overcome by a sense of renewal. My tutor, his collegue and the nurses who stood with me throughout showed such successful teamwork, suave surgical skills and this deep understanding of medicine (unknown yet to fresh medical students like us), that it all re-ignited an inner flame..... I was ready to begin another love affair with medicine.
Why so philosophical, i hear you ask? Maybe its the novelty of this being my first full-blown surgical experience. But it may also be the miracle that is, medicine.
I wish everyone all the best during the fine clinical years ahead...it's going to be a blast! Cheers!